first steps

I have this longing in my spirit, this longing for something great, something radical, something earth changing...one problem, I do not know what that something is. Go figure. I have been consumed for several months for something different. I have an itching to be moved, not necessarily literally changing locations physically, but I need to know where I am going. Where is this life I lead headed? I know it will be a place of goodness and greatness for that is what I pray and long for, but what will it entail? How will it look? Where will it be? So many questions circling me and consuming my mind, yet there is an underlying current of peace. I guess I feel as contradictory as that sounds, I am in a whirlwind of emotions yet I feel grounded in peace, to be honest though I am feeling a little dizzy. I am praying and searching for that silver lining, the one bright star to point me in the right direction atleast. I have all these ideas of what I may want to do, what I feel called to, but how will they connect? How will they fit together when they are so widespread? It is such a blessing for humanity that I am not God because I haven't the slightest idea where to start. I just continue to pray and seek. Yet my soul still hungers for the silver lining to light my path, even just the first steps that is all I need, the first steps. After that atleast I'll know where I'm headed and I can just jump, hold my breath and leap into greatness. I just need the light to see my first few steps.

He'll find me

"Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Whyd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me." --You found me by The Fray





I claim to follow this all powerful God, capable of anything even the impossible. Yet, even though I know this in my heart to be true so often I forget to believe it for myself. He can do the impossible-He is limitless, nothing can stop Him. So why do I forget? I guess because I am human. This shouldn't be an excuse though, I should always remember this no matter what, God will always find me. God can make the impossible possible, He has done it so many times already. This realization came back to my mind tonight, thanks to my heroic earthly father. He too will always find me, he always knows what I need to hear and he can always remind me to reach just beyond the impossible because if the desire of your heart is from God, He can make it reality for you. Nothing miraculous happened tonight in fact, I was feeling pretty hopeless, but yet God used my dad to find me. To remind me that He can do anything and I get the easy of the deal, all I have to do is believe. All I have to do is believe....