Over the past few days I have had an overwhelming feeling of 'rightness' wrap around me. I finally feel that I have found the direction I am supposed to head in for the next phase of my life that God has laid out for me. The desire has always been in my heart, but somehow I managed to cover it or pass it over as something that was not of significance--I was wrong. That desire is what I now know so fully as my place of 'rightness.' It is exciting and felt a little out of left field when that desire turned into a flame instead of a spark. I was talking with one of my professors about what a love I have for literature and reading of any kind, and she commented that she was surprised I was not majoring in english. I thought to myself, 'you know I am kind of surprised too.' I could not get those thoughts out of my head for weeks following that conversation, so I just lifted it up to God and simply asked for direction. Well then the tugging of my heart strings began, you know that tug where you know God is about to ask you to do something that scares you even though you know it is right. Well the tugging continued so I sought some advice of great friends and my family then I decided, I would once again change my major and this would be the final change--English Literature with a minor in Communications. I had a wonderful conversation with my former english rhetoric professor and the entire time she was talking all I could think about was how right it felt knowing this is what I would be studying and exploring. Then this past Sunday I had the honor of meeting and talking with author Brian Mclaren. He too majored in English and was once an English Professor. It was during this talk with him, that I know was a gift from the Almighty, that I felt God saying, "Ok do you get it now? You know you love this and I love it for you, so just go for it!" So I am not saying I know for sure which occupation I will hold with this degree, but I do know that after graduate school--where is still yet to be determined--I will entertain the idea of teaching in a University setting. It is just an idea and I know that there are many options, but it feels great knowing I am headed in the right direction even if I do not know the destination.
"Change comes like a little wind that ruffles the curtains at dawn, and it comes like a stealthy perfume of wildflowers hidden in the grass." -John Steinbeck
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